Come on over to the other side

It is expensive to be sick and unhealthy. In my sickleave I have put a lot of money, energy and effort in gaining my health back in all spectras from energihealing, inner peace, balancing health values and nurturing my self. It has cost me a lot of money to analyze how my bodys health looks like, what minerals I am lacking and what wholefood, supplements and clean food will restore my balance in the body again. But it will cost a lot of money remain unhealthy as well. Getting stuck i the same old. Feeling the depression starting to kick in. Not to be happy and cherished in the situation your in. You see, we have a choice in life. To remain in the same or to jump in the new. Its a way of saying yes or no to life. Because nothing good will ever come if your whole life year after year, everything looks the same, feels the same and it will make you feel you are stuck in the journey of becoming what you are meant to be.

To be sick is to feel depressed yes. It is like you are trapped inside your body and that you have everything working against you. At least thats what you feel. It is no fun anymore to not be able to do the things or to feel the things you once used to. It is like you are showered with depressive feelings over you and  every minute you try to fight it to stop. And I felt I did some good work there, to work on my self and my innerpeace with all that means, but. When you thought you managed yourself not getting into depression it slowly starts to kick in. Nothing is fun anymore. You have tried so hard, and for what it feels like. What is the point with everything. The lack of motivation that arises. When this happens, like for me it started when I thought I finally was starting to go back to work but the market did it hard for me since it had no place for me and everything was taking so long in time. Then you must get up and get going. Start moving. Start new things. Find other places. See it as a cleaning state, your body is telling you about. "Hey sandra, you have outgrown this state in life, this situation your in. The people. The places. The feelings. The activities. The believing. Start new. Start fresh. Leave the old to make room for the new. The depression-coat your now walking with will fall of as soon as you get over that bridge over there we have laid out for you. Yes, we are a part of this. We helpers from the universe. We angels. We everything. We will make it alright for you but you have to trust us and by that, dare to take your next move towards your new place, knowing it is guided by us through you. We are one you see, you and me. If you ever feel nervous or nauses know that it is the waves under the bridge and that you are above that, by just keep walking. Come to us, on the other side, here your safe. Here you flourish. Here you strive. Finding your happy is a place you cant imagine where you are now. Here it will be clear. Everything is beauty here, because it all belongs to you, it all have been created by you".